My Life Gone Wrong.

  Is there a reason to explain why I had to endure all these unfortunate events that happen in my life for the past few days? Start from infected by super virus that cause me fever, throat ache and running nose. To continue, I miss my MUET exam speaking test. On top of that, I miss the most important class of principle of animation which student must learn the most important subject, the 12 animation principle. Then, the smartphone I want to buy out of stock again! To make thing even worse, I lost my Toshiba pen drive that I love so much. I don't even remember where do I lose it when I found out it had vanish. And finally, the final nail to coffin to the unfortunate event saga, tons of assignment pour on my way, thank you to my beloved lecturers.

  So a string of unfortunate events that happen in my life had destroy my life in both way, mentally and physically. I have some pretty dark moment during these few days. I refuse to eat as I tackle with my body issue image. I am as sick as a dog but I have to work harder to finish my assignment on due date. At this moment I kind of want to give up on myself. The moment that you feel like a piece of shit that you can't do anything right but to screw it all. I feel that I have disappointed to myself as I am having low self-esteem. Then I start to question my capability, can I move on with this mess? Can I finish this degree in 3 more years? Can I get a job after I graduated?

 

  In the moment that I lost my direction in my life, I found an article from newspaper which ignite my inspiration. The article is about handicapped people who lost their limb due to car accidents teams up together and travel to the beach to learn diving in the coral sea. I find that quite inspiring for people who have mobility problem are trying to overcome difficult obstacle to achieve something that is meaningful to their life. They are trying to send out message to the public that they are not useless as they are still capable to enjoy their holiday on the beach. This is what you called when life give you a lemon, you make it into lemonade. Also, there are tons of people out there are trying to survive each day less than one US dollar and some of them live in warzone area. I am sure they will have a long way to go as they continue to live their life. For that, I should be grateful for all the amazing things in life like friends, family and college life.

 

  So all this inspiration have enormous impact to my view on my life issue, I realize I like to whine( quite a lot) when I deal with difficult situation. Also, I like to exaggerate lots of stuff with my wild imagination toward negative way that make me feel stressful. But I guess I just need some "cooling time" to chill out before I can go back to the arena and fight for more. I decided to take action to overturn my unfortunate moment by carefully take care of my body, exercise more and spend more time to study Japanese language. Hopefully I can turn it out as I can dance to the song of victory! 

  Listening to the song "I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor and work on my piles of assignments.